Well its almost the end of this year but I feel happy! I still think I am 25 yrs and sometimes I have to do math to realize how old I am. haha Anyways I really don't have new year's resolution because I live each day with a resolution. Some of my friends want to marry and have a kid blah blah but for me I am just waiting for God's time because I am in no rush, its not me who controls my life but my Father. I told my friend, there is a time for everything! all we need to do is be realllllly patient with God. I guess my everyday resolution is to set an example of Christ-character. Also to have in mind that I am HIS vessel and servant. Its not easy but I have to try my best... Our God is a great and AWESOME God!

wow. I haven't been in this site for a long time. A lot has changed and I no longer struggle inside as much as I did. God taught me how to be humble in all times and circumstances. He puts in front of me my weakness to get me stronger and to create in me, characters of Christ. I make mistakes... I recently met my mom and stepdad, I was thinking of the time when I first met my stepmom. It was the same feeling as I felt before when I met him and my mind and my heart was struggling inside." Be like Christ!"" No, don't accept the situation!" Then I was thinking about when I was in middle school how I hated to let people know @ church, that my parents were divorced because back then it was 1:200 korean kids' parents were divorced. I give mad props to my brother who puts away the past and live what is today. I can't do that easily,maybe its because I am older and it affected me more. But I am trying these days to be change and be in the present. It is one of the million things God is working in my life. I need to show Christ's love to my relatives.

I would like to say that God is awesome! As you all know I am on my break for school and next semester I am taking 12hrs. I will work full time at the same place so its night classes and 1 internet class. Well you see that is not what I wanted to share. It is my financial support to get to school, I prayed to God for His will in me going back to school. I applied for loans without 1040 ( which was kind of risky) hoping that it would work.  I waited and heard no answers from my school or the government. When I went to go register I asked them did I get any loans and she told me you have loans and grant! I was so excited because GRANT? oh no I only get CFNI scholarship but no grants because I didn't apply with a 1040. But it was from the government.You guys might not understand how great it is for me because I went and the cashier told me that I had to pay $6000 ( in my head I was calculating how much it is a month) but she told me I had loans and GRANT! I was so happy because I can finish my last 3 semesters and go to which ever theo school He sends me. During my times of waiting I prayed to God and really didn't worry about my finance because I trusted God. You might be asking,"what about the loans you have pay off?" Well loans you can pay them off thats all!

This also applies to everything in my life... family, friends, love, and etc. Especially my character, I don't have a lot of good characters but I pray that God will keep changing me for the better, for His sake. What can I lose eh?

God works in His time ,AMEN!

I have been thinking lately about what is my priority.Where do you put yourself?

Jesus you others?

you Jesus others?

others you Jesus?

You had a hard week of school, studying and papers one after another, but during that week you pray to God and you have a good relationship with Christ. One night a friend calls while you are studying, you screen the name and you kind of hesitate but you answer the phone. " Hello.. whats up?... I'm studying right now I'll call you back." the friend says " Wait, I am calling because I don't have anyone to eat with and right now i am feeling down." What do you do? Do you say " Hey, you know what you should call John, I think he will eat with you." or " Hey I am busy right now so I will call you back.ok?" I mean the first response is not bad but if you don't know for sure that John can eat with him then that is just shooing your friend off. I think the answer is kindness, taking an hour off for break will not hurt as much as hurting a person's heart. Ya'll might think that I feel this way now but I don't its just one of my random thoughts. So now on I will try to bear the characteristics of Christ, because having one is not enough, we can not learn but God teaches us through different ways. I heard this from pastor Chang and it really stuck to me because it helps me evaluate who I am and why I am here. 

Jesus Others You (me)

 The greater my wisdom, the greater my grief.
      To increase knowledge only increases sorrow.

Ecclesiastes 1:18